Happy new year, everyone!! ❤️
I hope with all my heart that 2023 is kinder, better, more wonderful and full of love and light for y’all :’)
2022 was a weird year, and I think all the years since 2019 have been weird for me.
Not just because of the pandemic, which was of course challenging and time-warping in its own way and given the way my brain thinks of 2019 as last year, it still is.
But also because 2020 was supposed to be the year when my “life” started. I started my final semester industrial training in Jan 2020 and for a while there, “life” did start. It started by being so consumed into this new adult, corporate life that you’ve no time left to yourself. It started by being so overwhelming, frustrating and scary because what if I’m not cut out for this after all? What if I figure it out now, after already wasting four years in getting this stupid degree? And then it turned out just fine, it turned out I could actually handle it pretty well if I wanted to.
But then the pandemic started (is that even how you talk about the pandemic? I’ve no clue.) and now it feels as if I’m just stuck in a weird limbo. The time goes on but this weird limbo does not. So I guess, it is because of the pandemic after all.
Beginning of a new year has turned very bittersweet for me. Every year since I started working I’ve this fear of not having any time at all to myself. Every year starts with dreading and being terrified of not being able to pursue my hobbies and just working all day long, going to bed and getting up only to do it all over again. Every year it is so debilitating that I just don’t ever expect to be able to read more than 40-50 books and that’s if I’m lucky enough. Because I think at the end of the day, that’s what I fear most. Not having the time to be a human and instead being just another machine in this deeply depressing capitalist system.
I want to say now that I’ve worked in corporate for three years, I know how to handle my work so that I still have time to do my own thing. But the thing is, in corporate, a lot of times that doesn’t really depend on you. So instead, what I’m going to say is, now that I’ve worked in corporate for three years, I know how not to give away a single second of my personal time to corporate.
These last couple of years have also been very hard for me mental health wise. I don’t talk about it much online and I would rather not because those things are deeply personal to me and I don’t have it in me yet to be able to just put it out there and have more than one person know about it all. But I’ve mostly been doing better these last couple or so months and I’m very grateful for that. My hope for this year is to take conscious steps for the betterment of my mental health and if possible, therapy.
As for reading, this year has been the best year I’ve had so far and I honestly don’t think I’m ever again going to read as much as I’ve read this year. This is not because I’m tired of reading or want to put “quality over quantity” or any such bs. I think I’ll always be someone who yearns to be somewhere else, to read about other people, other worlds, similar to mine or not. This is because I think I’ve finally started to take writing seriously.
The last time I worked on writing an idea of mine, I discovered there were already books out there that had all but a couple of details from my idea and so I immediately stopped. I did try to write something else but didn’t stick through with anything. But this whole year there have been ideas floating around in my mind and one of them started to turn into a story all on its own and I finally started writing it last month. It is still in the very beginning and I don’t even have an outline yet but I’m very excited for this and I hope to stick with it.
Career wise, I also hope to get a remote job this year since from my experience so far, I enjoy WFH far more than anything else. Or better yet, switch careers into a more flexible field, preferably something related to art and creativity.
As for my social media presence, my only hope is for me to find more people to connect with, who love my content and what I create and post as much as I do. Because I do really love my content y’all, I think it is perfect if I do say so for myself 🤩 It has been three long years for me on booksta now and I’m truly grateful for the community and the friends I’ve found over there :’) And if you’re an Indian resident reading this, I’ve a giveaway up on my feed rn for my bookstaversary <3
So that was all I had in mind to share for the new year. Let me know if you have any goals or hopes for 2023, I would love to hear <333
Happy New Year, loves, it’ll be a great one 🤞❤️
Happy new year Niharika!!!! 💗💗💗💗